Baby. Sweet, Sweet Baby,
You have only days left until you turn an entire year old. How has the time gone by so quickly? How have we already had 360 days together? How have the moments & milestones added up to today?
Your sweet little toes are tucked under my ribs & your little cheeks are snuggled into my side. You must be dreaming about feeding because you alternate smiles & suckling while you sleep. Oh, those sweet little lips, how I could kiss them again & again.
The day we learned that you would be ours brought so much joy to our lives, Daddy & I, your big brother & sister couldn't be more excited. You completed our family.
We waited as you grew, trying out names, picturing whether you'd be a little girl or boy. And then you were here. You were this tiny 7lb 13oz bundle with no instruction manual. We didn’t sleep for days because we watched you breathe all night. You were just too precious to turn away from.
That first month was a blur. So were the next three. You loved the bath tub, started to giggle & rolled over with ease. These little things made us so proud. The months continued to fall from the calendar. You crawled, cried, stumbled & cruising. You ate foods & nursed, gave kisses & played peek-a-boo. And now we are here, crossing off day 360 – rounding out your first trip around the sun.
I wish you so much happiness throughout your (long) life that it brings tears to my eyes. I promise to allow you to be whomever you truly are – & aid you in any way toward pursuing your dreams. You will make so many mistakes, & so will I. I promise to apologize throughout those mistakes & always work toward being better for you – & for me.
I know that we have years of sports, & dress-up, hormones, & dating ahead of us…. BUT not today. No, not tomorrow either. I have learnt just how fast this whole childhood is going to disappear & I want to live it with you, at your pace. I will not rush you into things, or dream too far into the future. I will walk barefoot on the grass with you; I will take bubble baths & let you splash everywhere. But today, in this moment, I will cry the sweetest tears as I see how you have grown; I will try to capture this moment to remember forever.
My sweetest love, I will always be here to hold you. I will rock you as long as you allow. I will always worry, but will also support you. My love will never falter or drift, for you, my little one, are a part of my heart. ❤️
Love you so much my little darling,