Thursday, 30 March 2017

Recipe- Tomato & Halloumi Bake

 

This Halloumi Bake perfectly combines the healthy freshness of veggies with the chewy, salty halloumi for a delicious vegetarian dinner.

It was my first time making this dish, luckily it was a big hit with the 2 elder children. There are onions, courgettes & tomatoes hidden underneath all that glorious halloumi, all of which the children supposedly hate, but both cleaned up their plates now problem. 

This was super quick & easy to make with only 10 minutes prep time & about 30 minutes cooking time. 

Ingredients- Serves 4
    1. 1x Onion, diced
  • 3x Cloves Garlic, chopped
  • 2x Courgettes, chopped into quarters
  • 6x Medium Tomatoes, sliced
  • 1x Tbsp Tomato Purée
  • 1x Tbsp Tumeric
  • 1x Tsp Cumin
  • 1x Tsp Paprika 
  • 1x Tsp Chilli Flakes
  • Sea Salt & Ground Black Pepper, to taste
  • 200g Halloumi, sliced
  • 1x Tbsp Olive Oil
  • Handful Fresh Basil, to garnish (I forgot mine)
 

Method
  1. Heat the oil in a frying pan over a medium heat. Add the onions & fry until they have softened up, then add the garlic & fry for a little longer. (About 2 minutes.)
  2. Add the tomatoes, courgettes, tomato puree, tumeric, cumin, paprika, chilli flakes, salt & pepper. Cook for a further 20 minutes until everything is softened & the tomatoes have released their liquids. 
  3. Heat the grill to medium-high, removing the frying pan from the hob & place the slices of halloumi across the top of the veggies. Place under the grill until the cheese has browned. Sprinkle with basil before serving. 
I served mine up with a side of Salad & Slimming World Chips. It really was delicious & extremely substantial!

 

Wednesday, 29 March 2017

Interview ft. Jamie & Gracie-Mae

 

Children are, lets face it, a mystery- & what's going on in their little heads is often as baffling as it is hilarious. 

There has been a great post circling around Facebook for a while now, where you are encouraged to sit down with your child & ask certain questions without any prompting, you then repost the questions & answers along with the child's name & age. 

I have seen loads of my Facebook Mummy & Daddy friends do this & the answers their children were coming up with were so funny & endearing that I decided to do the exercise with my children. 

So here's how my 'interview' went with Jamie(8yrs old) & Gracie-Mae(6yrs old).....

1. What is something Mummy always says to you? 

Jamie: Please can you listen to me?

Gracie-Mae: Can you keep Isaac happy for abit please?

2. What makes Mummy happy? 

Jamie: Going out to the beach. 

Gracie-Mae: Me & Jamie listening to you. 

3. What makes Mummy sad?

Jamie: Us not listening.

Gracie-Mae: Us not listening.

Well if you know this, then why can't you bloody start listening then?! 

4. How does Mummy make you laugh? 

Jamie: By tickling me.

Gracie-Mae: Being funny when we play games.

5. What was Mummy like as a child?

Jamie: I have no idea.

Gracie-Mae: A good girl but sometimes naughty.

I think my parents would completely disagree with this & say I was the devil child from hell. Sorry Mum & Dad.

6. How old is Mummy? 

Jamie: 27.

Gracie-Mae: 27.

7. How tall is Mummy? 

Jamie: About 7.0 Metres.

Gracie-Mae: 27 Metres.

My kids must think I'm like a freakin' Giant!! 

8. What is Mummy's favourite thing to do? 

Jamie: Cooking.

Gracie-Mae: Looking after Isaac.

9. What does Mummy do when you are not around? 

Jamie: Look after Isaac. 

Gracie-Mae: Look after Isaac.

10. If Mummy becomes famous, what will it be for? 

Jamie: Singing because you have a really good voice.

Gracie-Mae: Dancing.

Seriously have no idea why they think I can sing & dance. I really, really can't! Unless you count singing nursery rhymes completely out of tune & if shaking my hips whilst hoovering counts as dancing?

11. What is Mummy really good at? 

Jamie: Cooking & Singing.

Gracie-Mae: Looking after us Kids & Cooking.

12. What is Mummy not very good at? 

Jamie: Baking Cakes, they always stick to the pan. 

Gracie-Mae: Doing the splits. 

Yep will totally agree with both of them here, I can't bake for shit & I tried doing the splits the other day, well, it didn't end well, I'll leave it as that. 

13. What does Mummy do for a job? 

Jamie: Being a housewife.

Gracie-Mae: Looking after us kids.

14. What is Mummy's favourite food?

Jamie: Turkey Burgers that you make.

Gracie-Mae: Home-made Curry that you make. Anything healthy really.

15. What makes you proud of Mummy? 

Jamie: Your cooking.

Gracie-Mae: Your cooking, its yum, yum! 

Nice to know my cooking is appreciated! Half the time I swear they say they like it, to avoid hurting my feelings.

16. If Mummy was a character, who would she be? 

Jamie: Scooby-Doo, because you are really good at doing his voices.

Gracie-Mae: Cinderella.

I'm crap at imitating Scooby-Doo, I'm pretty sure I like never imitate him, but nice to know Jamie finds it amusing. And Cinderella, well she cooks, cleans & dresses in rags, so I'll give Gracie-Mae that.

17. What do you & Mummy do together?

Jamie: Going out to fun places & cooking together.

Gracie-Mae: Playing board games.

18. How are you & Mummy the same?

Jamie: We both like our sleep.

Gracie-Mae: We are both girls.

19. How are you & Mummy different?

Jamie: We have different coloured eyes.

Gracie-Mae: We wear different size clothes.

20. How do you know Mummy loves you?

Jamie: Because you hug & kiss me lots.

Gracie-Mae: Because you tell me all the time.

21. What does Mummy like most about Daddy? 

Jamie: Daddy being really funny.

Gracie-Mae: Daddy makes you laugh loads.

Hmmm, I think I'll beg to differ on this one.

22. Where is Mummy's favourite place to go? 

Jamie: To the beach.

Gracie-Mae: On holiday.

23. How old was Mummy when you were born? 

Jamie: I have no idea.

Gracie-Mae: 21. 

I was 18 years old when I gave birth to Jamie, Gracie-Mae was very close, I was 20 years old when she was born. 


Their responses brought such a smile to my face & really touched me. After we finished, I had one of those 'lightbulb' parenting moments. Why, you ask? Well it was a great way to see how they view me & the world. 

This exercise taught me that there is simply nothing better than looking at the world from a child's perspective. The little things really matter to them. Our children offer us their awareness, innocence & optimisim. Correct me if I'm wrong, but couldn't all of us use a little bit more of this in our life?

 


Tuesday, 28 March 2017

An Open Letter To My Depression & Anxiety

 
Dear Depression, 

You have been in my life for far longer than I ever realised, skulking about in the shadows like a hideous troll. You slowly stripped me off my confidence & wiped the smile from my face, & yet all the time I thought I was to blame. I believed I was too weak, too boring & too insignificant & I almost let you win. 

You made me feel so lonely, (even though I'm surrounded by people that love me) that I believed there was an invisible wall around me. I began to feel discouraged by everything the future had to offer. You got me in so many ways- emotionally, physically. I could no longer find comfort in the things that once helped boost my wellbeing. You cut me off from the beautiful world & laughed as I floundered in the choking fear that tried to drown me. 

For the longest time I did everything you wanted. If you wanted me to stay in bed, I did. If you wanted me to feel ugly, I did. If you wanted me to feel not a good enough Partner, Mother, Daughter, Friend, I did that too. 

I forgot what my face looked like without dark circles under my eyes & I forgot what talking to other people felt like. You held my hand when things got bad, but you wouldn't let go when things got better. And then one day I'd had enough. 

I understand that you may always be a part of my life but I refuse to let you win. You can take away my light & make me feel inadequate, you can terrorise me into considering that I have no control, but you are wrong. Yes, I will have my bad days, but that's okay because I now realise every morning, when I wake, I have a choice- & I choose to defeat you. 

I want to tell you that I am happy & that things are going well for me. I want to tell you that you make me want to tell others that it is going to be okay, because it is. 

Thankyou for the lesson you have given me but I'm now fully qualified to take back control. I hope I never see you again, but if I do, I'll be alright. I promise you that. 

Regards

Gemma

 


Recipe- Chicken Fajita Pasta

 

This Chicken Fajita Pasta is hands down one of my family's favourite go to meal when we can't think of what we fancy & when quite frankly I'm in a 'Can't be bothered to cook' kind of mood. 

It's loaded with crispy chicken, fresh veggies & wonderfully spicy, Creamy sauce. It's mouthwatering delicious. You seriously won't believe how ridiculously quick & easy it is to make! 

With about 10 minutes prep time & under 30 minutes cooking time.. this makes a perfect midweek dinner. 

Ingredients- Serves 4
  • 4x Chicken Breasts, diced
  • 1x Packet of Taco/Fajita Seasoning
  • 1x Onion, diced 
  • 2-3 Red & Green Peppers, diced 
  • 4x Garlic Cloves, minced 
  • 1x Can Chicken Broth or Chicken Stock made up with 450ml boiling water. 
  • 1/2 Cup Heavy Cream
  • 1x Can Ro-Tel Diced Tomatoes & Green Chiles
  • 8oz Penne Pasta
  • 1/2 Tsp Table Salt
  • 2x Tbsp Olive Oil
Method
  1. Season the diced chicken with half of the packet of seasoning. In a skillet heat 1tbsp of oil over a high heat. When the oil is very hot, add the chicken in a single layer & cook without stirring until one side is seared & browned, flip the chicken over & do the same with that side. Once cooked remove the chicken to a plate & set aside. 
  2. Add the remaining 1tbsp of oil into the skillet still on a high heat. Add the onions, peppers & remaining seasoning, cook stirring occasionally, until the veggies are slightly blackened. Turn to a low heat & add the garlic, stir until fragrant & well combined, about 30 secs. Remove the veggies to the plate with the chicken. 
  3. In the same skillet, add the broth/stock, cream, diced tomatoes, uncooked pasta & salt. Stir to combine & bring to the boil, then cover, reduce the heat to medium-low & cook for about 15 minutes until pasta is tender & liquid is mostly absorbed. Add the chicken & veggies back into the skillet & stir to combine & heated through, about 2 minutes. 
  4. Serve & enjoy! 
This pasta is PACKED with so many fresh flavours. It would be perfect with a slice of buttery, toasted garlic bread. I hope you love it just as much as we do! 

 

Sunday, 26 March 2017

An Open Letter To All Mum's On Mother's Day

 

Happy Mother's Day Mum's! Today is your special day, to be thanked for all you do & to give thanks for all your Mum did before you. Only when you become a mum yourself can you finally understand your own mum. Talk about eye-opening right? 

I love that we set aside a whole day to honour & celebrate the women who raised us. To all the Mum's & Step-Mum's, Grandmother's & Godmothers, to those who hope to become Mother's & to those who have lost children or their own mother's. 

As a mum myself, I have so much respect for the work that all women & mum's do each day. It's nice for us to have a day, but I celebrate you everyday! 

I wish each & everyone of you a very Happy Mother's Day!

I will be celebrating not just Mother's with children, but to the women who have lost babies/children, I hope you are all recognised as a mother, and I know in my heart you are an amazing one. 

I will be celebrating the women who have taken in the children of others to act as a positive female role model/ mother figure. I honour your role in the life of a child who needed you & thankyou for giving so graciously of yourself. 

To the children whose Mum's have passed, I open my arms out to you & will grieve with you instead of celebrating. 

To the women who are unable to have children & who cry over their imagined lives, I open my arms & heart to you & cry with you. 

Whilst I'm writing this post about Mother's Day I would like to take this opportunity to say a special Thankyou to my Mum. 

Because today is Mother's Day & you are my Mum & although I am a Mum myself now, I was your daughter first. 

And what a pain in the arse I was (still am) Good God i have a lot to apologise for! I also want to Thankyou for making me play by your rules. I didn't always love it & I know I didn't always make it easy. Thankyou for all the sacrifices you & dad made whilst I was growing up.

But most of all, I am thankful that you're here to help me navigate my own journey as a Mum. 

So on this Mother's Day, Thankyou for everything, everything you have done. Everything you have put up with. Everything you've taught me. Everything I am. Thankyou for always being there for me- for me & now for your grandchildren. They are so lucky to have a special nanny like you, and I am lucky to have you as my mum.

Love you Mum Xx

Happy Mother's Day! 

 


Friday, 24 March 2017

Recipe- Slow Cooker Beef & Sweet Potato Stew

 

Slow Cooker Beef & Sweet Potato Stew! There is nothing better than when it comes to the end of the day & dinner is already prepared ready to just dish out, filling your home with rustic comfort food aromas. 

With this recipe, you just throw it all in & wait for it to cook & thicken into a glorious stew, while the sweet potatoes begin to melt through the sauce, creating a flavour explosion so rich, you'll be happy to have leftovers! 

This meal takes about 10 minutes prep time & either 8-10 hours on a low heat or 4-6 hours on a high heat. 

So this is super easy to just throw together in the morning, leaving you to get on with your day & not have to worry about fussing about in the kitchen when it comes to dinner time. 

Ingredients- Serves 4
  • 1 1/2kg Beef Stew Meat, diced into cubes
  • 1/3 Cup Flour
  • 1x Onion, chopped
  • 4x Garlic Cloves, crushed
  • 1x Large Sweet Potato, peeled & diced in chunks.
  • 2x Large Carrots, peeled & sliced
  • 1x Red Pepper, de-seeded & diced
  • 400g Can Beef Broth
  • 400g Can Chopped Tomatoes 
  • 1x Beef Stock Cube, crushed
  • 1x Tsp Mild Paprika
  • 2x Bay Leaves 
  • Salt & Ground Black Pepper, to taste
  • Fresh Parsely, to garnish
Method
  1. Place the beef & flour into your slow cooker bowl. Stir to coat the meat & then add in the rest of the ingredients (expect for the bay leaves & parsley.) Stir all the ingredients together & place the bay leaves on top.
  2. Cover & cook on a low setting for 8-10hrs or on a high setting for 4-6hrs.
  3. Garnish with parsley. 
  4. Serve over white rice or mashed potatoes. 

10 Reasons Why I'm #RockingMotherhood

 

Firstly I would just like to say a massive Thankyou to Jo over at pickleandpoppet.uk for tagging me to take part in the #RockingMotherhood tag. Please head over to her site to see how she's #RockingMotherhood. 

I feel like us Mum's put so much pressure on ourselves to be "perfect"- to be the women who appear in all of those parenting books. But in reality it can be the complete opposite. Parenting is a bloody tough job to do but it is also the most rewarding. Motherhood, I feel, is such a personal experience, we can share similarities in our stories, but we can never share the same experience. 

I am a mother to 3 beautiful children, all 3 of my children are their own person & completely different to each other, & my experience as a mother has been completely & utterly different with each child. 

Motherhood, for me, has been a huge learning curve, I'm still learning daily as my children change & grow. Some days are better than others, it's not always easy, but the best way to deal with it is to embrace all the good & also the bad. 

We spend so much time as parents worrying about if we are doing it right, feeling guilty majority of the time & wishing we had done things differently. So today i want to be positive about my mothering skills & have written a list of 10 reasons as to why I'm #RockingMotherhood. 

1. I housed 3 babies for 9 whole months & have given birth.
As mothers we unselfishly give up our bodies for 9 whole months,(if not abit longer if your one of the unlucky ones like me & have gone way overdue!) & endure all the horrendous things that pregnancy has to offer (not in everyone's case, some are lucky to have glowing, enjoyable pregnancies, not even the slightest bit jealous😳). Not only that we then have to birth the baby! It can be the most amazing, painful, humbling & frightening experience us Mums have to go through- Us Mums totally rock! 

2. I have managed to keep not one, not two but THREE humans alive!
I've been Parenting for nearly 9 years now, you would think I have mastered this whole mothering marlarkey, well I haven't, I'm still learning even now, but being able to keep my children alive & well is a huge achievement for someone who couldn't even keep her pet hamster alive! 

3. My children eat healthily (most of the time.)
At least 5 out of the 7 days my children will have healthy home-cooked meals, it's a good thing I love to cook really. But they do have their cheat days like you & I would, it's nice to have treats now & again. *Scoffing face with a chocolate bar* 

4. I'm a Mother of many talents. 
I am a Mother first & foremost, but I am not just a Mother. No, No, No. I am also a Cook, Cleaner, Nurse, Referee, Photographer, Handyman, Walking Cash Machine & so on & so on. But I wouldn't have it any other way. 

5. I never take my children for granted. 
There is never a day that goes by that I don't count myself the luckiest person in the world to have my 3 babies. (Most of the time I count my blessings like this  when they are sleeping soundly in their angelic little poses)- I'm obviously completely joking😳.

6. I have made many mistakes & I will always let my children know when I have made one. 
I tell them when I have made a mistake or if I am the one in the wrong because I need them to know I am not perfect. I am a human & making mistakes is okay. We are not infallible.

7. I support & encourage my children in all they choose to do. 
They may not always listen to me or make the right choices but we all learn from our mistakes & I will always be here for them the best I can be. 

8. I have suffered Mini Breakdowns. 
How is this Rocking Motherhood? I hear you say. Well as Mum's we juggle a lot of responsibilities cooking, cleaning, nurturing, organising etc.. Sometimes, these obligations intersect in a perfect storm of stressors. If you were totally lazy or just didn't care about the people affected by all what you do, then you could let that stress fall away pretty easily. Couldn't you? However a conscious, responsible person (i.e. Rocking Mum) will have a much harder time shrugging off the stress & might end up collapsing in a ball of tears or a pillow throwing, foot-stomping tantrum. Which I unshamefully have experienced numerous of times & will continue to do so. 

9. I always put my children's needs before mine.
It doesn't matter what it may be my children will always be put first. Whether that's me singing "If your happy & you know it" for the hundredth time in that one day because my baby absolutely loves it, even if I don't feel like it, or if that means me having to go hungry because the children are hungry so they need to be fed, or if I've saved up my pocket money to splash out on that new top I've been eyeing up, but the children have come home from school with X,Y & Z that needs to be paid for then the money will always go on them. 

10. I love all 3 of my children unconditionally.
More than anything in this world. For all the things I'm not so great at, for all the mistakes I make. I truely believe the reason that I'm Rocking Motherhood stems purely from my love I have for my children. I think this is the reason why we are all #RockingMotherhood, we may have different methods & do different things, but we all love our kids with a passion that is scary. 

 

To make sure the motherhood love continues to spread, I'm going to tag some other lovely mummies. I look forward to reading your reasons why you rock. 

I tag........




Catherine- kids versus copy

Kasia- oh mummy mia


The Rules.....
  • Thank the blogger that tagged you and link to their blog. 
  • List 10 things you believe make you a good mother (this is just a guideline. It can be more or less than 10. I really don't mind).
  • Tag 3-5 bloggers to join in the #RockingMotherhood Tag. 
  • Grab the #RockingMotherhood badge and add it to your post or sidebar. 
Grab your badge from the lovely Pat who started this wonderful Tag at 
white camellias.

I look forward to reading all the reasons as to why you are #RockingMotherhood & so would Pat so if you tweet your post to @whitecamelias & @gemma_horlock we will be happy to RT them for you.

X




Tuesday, 21 March 2017

Unexpected Hospital Trip

 

Isaac is back in hospital, he was admitted early yesterday morning after being brought in by ambulance, all of the night before he was just so lifeless & had a horrendous wheeze, working really hard to breathe, his inhalers that were prescribed to him the last time he was admitted just before Christmas last year wasn't helping in the slightest. He wasn't drinking or eating which isn't like Isaac at all, anyone that knows him, knows how much he loves his food, abit like his father really. 

 

He was hooked up straight away and given a nebuliser, but his oxygen levels were just creeping lower & lower, my poor little boy. I knew then that we were in for a very long, distressing day for the both of us. It's literally the worst thing looking at your child feeling absolutely helpless because you know there is nothing you can do to help them. Just wishing you could swap places with them because as a parent you would do that in a heartbeat. 

 

A couple of hours later Isaac was given a feeding tube so they could monitor his fluid intake & keep him hydrated as he was just point blank refusing to take any form of liquids from me & was hooked up to an oxyflow machine to pump high levels of oxygen into him, this kept him a lot more comfortable & he even managed to get some decent sleep which is what he so desperately needed. 

We had a better nights sleep last night, I even managed a whole 4 hours solid sleep! Which done me the world of good, I was a blubbering mess yesterday being sick with worry for my baby boy & it's amazing what sleep deprivation can do to you! The sleep has done wonders for Isaac aswell, he has woken up a lot perkier, has taken a few feeds from me not through his tube & has even found some energy to play & flirting with the nurses, he is such a floozy that boy. He is still very wheezy & working hard to breathe, but he is definitely on the mend. All tubes have been removed now to see how he gets on without them & will be given oxygen as & when he needs it. Hopefully we can go home soon. I know he is in the best place right now & I would stay here all week if it means he is getting the help he needs, but there is no place better when your not feeling 100% to be able to sleep in your own bed is there? 

 



Friday, 17 March 2017

My Top 10 Mothers Day Gifts For £30 & Under

 

It's that time of year again, with Mother's Day just around the corner, where all Mum's deserve that extra special bit of love, because let's face it, without them none of us would be here today. Whether they are Birth Mothers, Grandmothers, Adopted Mothers or just somebody that has been a Motherly Figure in your life- hats off to you all, you are fabulous. 

Here's my top 10 picks for Mother's Day gifts all for £30 & under to help you say Thankyou to that special lady in your life. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


Thursday, 16 March 2017

Recipe- Creamy Slow-Cooker Chicken Korma

 

This Slow-Cooked Chicken Korma is a perfect dish when you want a mild, fragrant curry that even the younger members of your family can enjoy, even my 7 month old couldn't get enough of his meal. 

Enriched with coconut milk & aromatic spices, this super creamy curry is a delicious comfort food that hits the spot.

This is a really quick & easy recipe to follow & the Slow-Cooker literally does all the work, leaving you with  time to do other things with your afternoon, instead of slaving over a hot stove. 

This meal takes 10 minutes prep time & either 3hrs cooking time on a high heat or 6hrs cooking time on a low heat. 

Ingredients- Serves 4
  • 4x Chicken Fillets, cut into bite size chunks
  • 1x Onion, diced
  • 2x Garlic Cloves, minced
  • 3x Tsp Ground Cumin
  • 2x Tsp Ground Coriander 
  • 1x Cinnamon Stick
  • 1/2x Tsp Chilli Powder
  • 50g Ground Almonds
  • 250ml Coconut Milk
  • 120ml Boiling Chicken Stock 
  • 1/2x Tbsp Tomato Purée 
  • 75ml Single Cream
  • 2x Tbsp Fresh Lemon Juice
  • 1x Tbsp Garam Masala
  • Rice to serve
Method
  1. If necessary grease the slow cooker pot with butter. Switch your cooker to high. 
  2. In a bowl mix together the cumin, coriander, ground almonds, chilli powder, coconut milk, chicken stock & tomato purée, stir well. 
  3. In the pot place the onion, garlic & chicken.
  4. Pour your mixture over the chicken & add the cinnamon stick. 
  5. Cover with the lid & cook on high for 3 hours or on low for 6 hours. When the chicken is cooked & tender stir in the cream, garam masala & lemon juice & then cook on high for 30 minutes. 
  6. Check the chicken is cooked through, add salt & pepper to taste if you want to, remove the cinnamon stick.
  7. Serve immediately with rice, poppadums or naan bread. 



Wednesday, 15 March 2017

I'll Never Do That When I Have Kids (Lies I Told Myself Before Becoming A Mum)

 

Oh, the things we say before we have kids. We stroll past kids throwing tantrums or have looked after the neighbours bratty children & said to ourselves, "When I have kids, I'll never do X,Y or Z." So easy to say those things before we actually have a screaming child having a meltdown in your local supermarket or when you have a child who won't sleep for more than 2 hours in a row. 
Here are a few things that I swore I'd never do as a Mum before I had my children. 

1. Be that parent with the screaming kid in public. 
My 2 now older children Jamie & Gracie-Mae as toddlers have had their fair share of public meltdowns, varying in intensity & a few people said to me, "Don't be embarrassed, anyone who has ever had children will understand." And I think that's actually true. I'm ashamed to say that before I had my children, I thought that a badly behaved child was a reflection on the parents, but now I know that every child just has bad moments, just like us adults, ermmm hello it's normal, are you happy go lucky every minute of the day? No I didn't think so, neither are children let's just give them a break. I will never ever again judge a parent with a screaming child. 

2. Sniff my baby's bum to check for poo.
I remember seeing parents do this & thinking Yuk that's disgusting. I am never doing that. It is disgusting. And yes I have done it. Lots. Even more disgusting is the reason why parents do this. Let me spell this out as clearly as possible: Parents sniff baby's bums because they no longer have the mental capacity to detect the smell of shit even when they are sat right next to it. 

3. MR.B & I referring to each other as Mummy & Daddy. 
Even though all the books say you ABSOLUTELY MUST NOT do this because you and your partner will immediately stop fancying each other & you will never have sex ever again. (But in fact we do refer to each other as Mummy & Daddy without even thinking about it), and if you do aswell, I wouldn't worry about it, there are many, many other things that will stop you from having sex- number one the little humans that you have created. 

4. Talk about my child's bodily functions. 
I done this with Jamie & Gracie-Mae & I still do this now with little Isaac, my life revolves around keeping track on how much he eats, sleeps & poops. I have become that parent who says things to MR.B at the end of the day like, "He had a huge pooey nappy today, I couldn't believe it!" I never thought I would be someone who talked about shit so much! Refer back to No.3 for turn-offs. 

5. Co-sleep with my children. 
There are so many articles & parenting forums that tell you that co-sleeping is dangerous & you will have plenty of people tell you, "Your making a rod off your own back, they will never sleep in their own beds." I was scared of falling into a deep sleep & rolling over squashing them, but the truth is you'll never fall asleep properly when your co-sleeping, your very conscious that they are there, but if your baby is sleeping soundly & not screaming blue bloody murder, and your not up and down pacing the bedroom floor, pinning your eyes back with cocktail sticks longing just to lay your head down on that pillow. Then go for it. It made my nights a lot easier. Enough said. 

6. Hide things from my children to avoid saying the dreaded words 'No'.
It's so easy when you don't have children to just say, "Just tell them no, the kids are not in charge, you are." But when you've had a long day & you just don't think you can deal with another whiny moment, it's just so much easier to hide the jar of sweets or the hideously loud toy that makes you want to jump of a bridge. I'm guilty of this on many occasions. Bad mummy over here. 

So when you find yourself doing something that you swore you'd never do as a parent, just remember, your doing the best you can, tomorrow is another day, & this job is super hard. But these are also things you'll look back on & smile at, I already do. 

 

Tuesday, 14 March 2017

It's My Birthday & I'll Blog If I Want To 🎶

 

Goodbye 26, Hello 27! Is it me, or is time going faster? Is this a sign? Am I getting older? I am pretty sure the days & hours are just the same. However, I still feel as though there is NEVER ENOUGH TIME in a day or week to do what I need to do! (Rant Over) 

Being that today is my birthday I have been playing a memory wheel of the past in my head. It's amazing how many things can change in 365 days. Last year on my birthday I was pregnant with my littlest small & now he is nearly 8 months old! The time is literally flying by its crazy. 

If you have been following my blogs you will know that Isaac was admitted into hospital again due to his breathing problems, so I am very lucky & thankful that he bounced back as quickly as he did & was home in time to party. Not that it would have mattered we would have just partied on the hospital ward. 

MR.B & the children spoilt me rotten, I was showered with so many lovely gifts! I pretty much got the whole of my birthday wish list! How much of a lucky girl am I? 

 
 

I was then treated to a Birthday lunch at Mattia which is an American Diner, I love quirky places like these. The food, drinks & atmosphere were amazing! I even treated myself to a cosmopolitan, drinking during the day, with a baby in toe, what a bad mummy! I Had such a lovely time & Isaac was so well behaved & happy. 

 
 
 

Later on when Jamie & Gracie-Mae got home from school I was banned from going into the kitchen for a little while, to be surprised with a small party tea that the children helped make & a birthday cake. It was such a lovely touch & the children were so excited to surprise me, I love how thoughtful they can be. 

 

 

I truely have had such a wonderful day & have been made to feel very special & loved. 

 




An Open Letter To The Person Who Got Me Through Depression

 
Depression is a dark, dark hole.

So what happens when you can't get out? What happens when you've spent so long in the hole, that you don't know how to get out? What happens when you get to the point of not wanting to come out? 

Because of one person's patience, courage & kindness, I got out of the hole. 

To the one person that never gave up. 

You saw me for who I was, not who depression made me. At that time, I wasn't me. Or anything close to me. I was a very different person, but you remembered me for who I really was & brought that person back. 

You laid with me in medication-induced sleep, you witnessed panic attacks when my brain would tell me it'd had enough & it wasn't worth it anymore, you wiped tear after tear. You didn't push me, you didn't question me. You cradled me when I couldn't sleep, when I couldn't stop tears from falling from my swollen eyes onto your mascara covered t-shirt. 

You gave me faith & hope, believed in me when I didn't. You knew I could make it. You made me smile through such negativity & spoke for me when I couldn't. You held my head up when I wasn't strong enough to win the battle going on in my head. You held my hand when I couldn't see the way & above all you loved me in spite of everything when I didn't even like myself. 

You faced my demons as much as I did. You put all my pieces back together & pulled me out of that hole. 

You gave me life. And for that I am eternally grateful. 

Thankyou to the man that will continue to stand beside me, no matter what life chucks our way. 

 

Monday, 13 March 2017

My Birthday Wishlist

 

So this month is my birthday month! Can't believe how quickly it has come around. I'm 27 in just over a week! What's happened?! But on the upside, this means I can create a wishlist for all the things I'm lusting over lately. 

 
I LOVE these frames, would match perfectly in our newly decorated living room. 

 
I'm a little addicted to all the jewellery from pandora & lets face it what girl doesn't love jewellery? 

 
I Would love a new laptop to use for my blogging & this one is perfect as it switches from laptop to tablet. *Mental Note* Must remember to be doubly overly nice to MR.B 😂

 
These candles are my favourite & smell absolutely divine! If ever your stuck on what to buy me you can never go wrong with a good candle. 

 
With the seasons changing my wardrobe is in need of an uplift especially with my forever changing body shape post-pregnancy. You can never go wrong with new clothing. 

 
I love the Bardot shirts/tops/dresses that are around at the moment. And again like I said before my wardrobe could do with a makeover. 

 
As you can see I'm slightly obsessed with River Island & when you buy new clothes you always want new shoes to go with the new outfit. 

 
The one thing I love to do when the smalls are asleep & MR.B is working nights, is to pamper my nails. Just have a little girly me time. Along with a large glass of wine in hand of course. 

I'm excited about the prospect of these, pleeasse birthday fairy (I'm obviously joking) Hoping MR.B has taken the hints 😂

What would be on your wish list?